Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I dared -A short story


A quick update from me. Shocker right. :) I just had this random idea in my mind and wrote this story down. :P Nope, am not suffering from depression or anything. This is just a fictional story. :D

Enjoy :-)

I dared - a short story by the Midnight Queen

I was the loud, boisterous girl who hated the limelight. I was crazy, I was wild and I was, well me. All those numerous advertisements which screamed and screeched for people to dare to be different were I guess, made for me. I dared to be different. I dared to speak my mind. I dared to stand up for myself and my family. I dared to go out wearing track pants and a loose top. I dared to go to parties without applying make-up. I dared to laugh out loud when I found something hilarious instead of covering my mouth and giggling like a silly girl. I dared to be a not so typical girl. I dared to be me. And…I dared to love him.

Who is he? He’s the man I’ll love my whole life but perhaps never get. He’s the funny, handsome, charming, and wonderful man I’m in love with. And will always love. It’s funny how people mistake my feelings of love to be that of infatuation. Well at first I didn’t argue, because I hardly knew him. But now that I do know him, I know it’s not infatuation. It’s love. And you know what the sad part is? He doesn’t know I exist…and if life is as brutal as it appears, he never will.

And from what I’ve heard and seen, he’s with another girl. One of those girls. Those girls who are not worth him. The type of girl I’ll never be. The silly, giggly, scantily clad girls with a figure to kill for. The girl I could be if I tried. But I won’t. Because she’s not me. She just lusts after his good looks. She’s mean, rude and arrogant. Not that I claim to be the nicest person on earth. I’m known to have attitude problems, but hey, in my process to be myself and stay true to myself I’ve, I guess stopped caring what people think about me. That doesn’t mean I am not likeable. I am said to be warm and lovable, friendly, loud and talkative…with the people I love.

My friends and family told me that I just lust after his insanely good looks. I argue. That’s not true. Sure enough it’s those good looks which captured my attention, but it’s his personality, attitude and he himself which captured my heart. He had also dared to be different. And so did I. He loves (or so I heard), another woman, and I love him. I always will. I have dared to love him knowing that there is a 95% chance of heartbreak.

I dared to dream that he’d know me and fall truly, madly and deeply in love with. I dream that he and I would dance in the pouring rain and share a kiss in the rain, just like Noah and Allie did in The Notebook. I dream that he and I would lie under the sky, gazing at the stars, our hands (and hearts) entwined, and that he’d whisper into my ear that he is in love with me. I dream that he’d introduce me to his family and friends, holding my hand saying ”She’s the girl, the girl I love”, and I’d do the same with my family and friends. I dream that he’d take me to a romantic dinner and get down on his knees and ask me to marry him.

And then I snap out of my beautiful dreams and face the grave reality that he doesn’t know me…he hasn’t noticed me yet. There’s a terrible pain in my heart just as I see him and her walk down the street, oblivious to my existence. He accidentally looks at me, smiles politely and walks away with her. A new glimmer of hope starts burning in my heart. I smile to myself and go inside. Perhaps he’d love me after all. Perhaps that polite smile he gave me was the start of something new, something…beautiful.

Despite all I know that the chances are bleak…the chances of him loving me are so  little. After all I’m no her. I am me, the not so typical girl who dared to be different. And I dared to love him, selflessly. I dared to hope, keep faith and dream. After all, both of us had dared to be different. I dared to let my heart beat for him. I dared…

Do leave your comments,
Midnight Queen

Monday, April 18, 2011

Virat Kohli- An Inspiration for the Indian Youth

Hello blogworld,

I am back after a really long time. My board exams are over and I am finally relaxing and enjoying myself. :) Along with the board exams, the Cricket World Cup 2011 also got over, and what an end it was. It couldn't have ended in a better way, and I am so proud to say that I could witness such an epic and historic moment in my life.

During this World Cup I came to notice a young Indian player- Virat Kohli. Just 22 years old, he is just 5 years older than  me. At first I noticed him as the most handsome player in the team. Obviously, that was enough for a teenage girl. I remember post the world cup final, everyone was saying that Gautam Gambhir, Mahendra Singh Dhoni and Yuvraj Singh saved the day. As far as I knew, from twitter ofcourse, the India team was partly out of danger due to the 83 run partnership made by Gautam Gambhir & Virat Kohli. Then why was Kohli mostly left out of the praises?

The runs of the four players on the day of the final were as follows- Yuvraj Singh (21), Virat Kohli (35), Mahendra Singh Dhoni (91) and Gautam Gambhir (97). I failed to understand why Kohli wasn't getting his due. Anyways, that added to my interest, and I started doing my research on him.

The first part of my research was of course the great Wikipedia. Under the First Class Cricket heading of his wikipedia page, was written that he was noticed when he played for Delhi in a Ranjhi Trophy match against Karnataka. His father had died early that morning, and yet he was at the stadium to play for his team. His 90 run innings were crucial for Delhi's victory that day. And this was in 2006 when he was 17 years old, the same age I am today.

Only a person with remarkable passion and love for what he or she is doing can go ahead and do something so so...remarkable. It takes great courage and emotional strength to play such a wonderful innings on the morning of your father's death. At the age of 17 one is still a child, not fully matured.

Then I read a lot of articles and saw a lot of interviews on the achievements of Virat Kohli. He is the first Indian to make a century in his world cup debut match [his 100* against BD in the opening WC match]. For the short while he has been playing International cricket his averages are really good.

Another thing that stuck out to me from the articles were the mentions about the change in his attitude. Many articles said that earlier he appeared to a "young talented lad in love with his own game". He admits to have been carried away by the fame that IPL gave him [post the success of the U-19 cup]. These are his very words-

I think I lost my way in the first year (of IPL) very badly and I admit to it. I was taken by the fame, so many people coming to watch and it was all first for me. Some people can deal with it but I couldn't. I didn't do well in the IPL but scored a century in the Emerging Players' tournament in Australia. (Dilip) Vengsarkar (the chairman of selectors) was there and he gave me a break in the national team after which things have only improved for me. That Emerging Players' tournament was the turning point of my career

It takes a great deal of courage to own up to your mistakes. Only a strong individual can do that. Unlike what most teenagers would have done in such a position, Kohli was determined to change his attitude and work towards the best. This again is from his own words-
What people were talking about my attitude during first IPL was right to a certain extent. I have accepted the criticism and tried to take it in the right spirit. There are two ways to deal with it; either you ignore it and keep continuing in the same way doing the same mistakes or you can accept the criticism and rectify it. And I took the second approach

A word that defines Virat Kohli is confidence. Confidence oozes out of him, and we can see that when we see him play. I saw him play live on the IPL2011 match "Deccan Chargers vs Royal Challengers Bangalore". I must say I am privileged to watch such a great innings by the rising star. So, as I was saying when I saw him play I saw just one thing- confidence. Confidence in his abilities, confidence in his talent, confidence in his game. Isn't that what the youth is all about? Confidence?

I am naturally confident. If I believe in my own ability I don't see anything else in the field. I had in mind I had done well in Australia and might get a chance soon. -Virat Kohli

Why I believe Virat Kohli is an ideal inspiration for the Indian Youth is because he achieved a lot of success and has fulfilled his dreams at a young age of 22. Such an example is an inspiration to the youth who believe in going after their dreams at a young age. It's an inspiration for the ones who don't want to wait till they are in their mid 30's to achieve their dreams. Virat Kohli is a living example and a proof that one doesn't need to go through twisted ways, or wait for a long time to achieve their dreams. He is a proof that one can use the straight and honest path & yet achieve a lot in a very short time.
This is why Virat Kohli is my hero. This is why a 22 year old young guy is my hero. This is why I think he is an inspiration for the Indian youth. It's not because of his good looks, it's because of his perseverance, his patience, talent, confidence & honestly. It's because he was able to admit to his mistake and rectify it. Kudos to you Mr. Kohli. 

A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles. - Christopher Reeve.

A hero is one who knows how to hang on one minute longer. - Novalis.

Thank you for reading,
Midnight Queen

P.S. I wish Virat Kohli all the success in life. :)